How is it that a bird sits centered in memory, but the cage and the living room and the color of a mother's robes have faded to sepia? Remember on the shelf a mug that said Trafalgar Square in red. For nine months it was the bus stop. Now no lions can impress.
I found missing letters for green envelopes; found english polaroids. Statues blur at high speeds--a caption reads is this the only time they move? Don't send me anything more ce sera le dernier. Hear that heartbeat underwater. Through pipes I can feel the ocean just two-hundred feet away. I press my ear to the waves that are born between this island and yours and there must be millions.
An ocean between like this: I sit on the phone as the sun rises and wait as the transatlantic static collects like Creeping Buttercups in the alley, like Hare's Foot Clover in my Soho, in your Soho.
Proof
It is in a candid cheek kiss, subjects still overcoated, blocking the entrance to the party. The lady wears a hat (now ladies never wear hats) and the man's white neck tie is only visible in the shadows. Ascots and feathers and molding trimmed ceilings; pearl earrings, Jacquard skirts peeking from beneath swing coats.
She asked if it was real, as her mother sat brushing the soft curls into her hair. She asked about Father and dinner parties before there were record players. Now, now.
Left going in, again (always, forever, amen), when the boy with freckles held down the shutter and lit up the room with a light unlike the soft yellow overhead. Shoved in deepest pockets, no peeks promised, a hidden message developing in the dark.
Found in the corner, in his scrawl--proof, a one-line drawing by fingernail. White as the Monday morning they met when he told her of the waves he bore into, of the spices bought on coasts with no maps.
Some Smallness
Was it rain or dew this morning
turning things too wet for touch,
for holding? I saw the yarn yellow
and fence snared--all flagging
in the wind--untethered over
night, embodying an absence.
The rabbit cage had a hole
and one bunny too few. The
fence had been dug under
and in the grass on the other
side she rested slick, lacking
dignity. When I held her in
my hands I could feel
the skull halved, held together
only by skin and fur (so soft).
Her breaths still came out
labored and she blinked
twice in my lap as I stroked
her bunny ears,
now reared (always to be reared).
Autumn rolled back
over. There was a
tree bare branched. There
was a tree relieved of
leaves. Weight shifting
in the wind, it did not
bemoan those fallen,
but rather it whistled.
~By Caroline Gormley~
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